The Top 5 Ways Depression Descends for Depressed People
I suffered through bouts of depression, each time I found it hovering like a storm cloud over my entire life.
To be clear, two of my major depressions stemmed from deep, dark, life-altering grief. In another significant season, it was as a result of an abusive relationship and an inability to extricate myself from what I experienced as a toxic situation. And my last bout, a few years ago, was over a job I didn't enjoy and wasn't good at, which indicated how important my job was to my mental health.
I have found that depression comes in two ways - without warning and over time. I have experienced both, the former many times and the latter enough to know.
The acute form is terrifying and leaves you reeling as it sneaks up on the present moment and crushes your hope and crushes your self-esteem.
I remember times when things seemed fine, say in the morning when I woke up, but by mid-morning the veil of disdain lifted within an hour or even minutes. Or I would wait out the day and the stillness of the evening would reveal my lonely inescapable reality.
At these moments I felt as if I were drowning in a paradox of emotions—unable to control them, yet unable to feel them without pain. unsustainable and erratic. It's the scariest thing I've ever experienced because it's a complete inside job where your world feels like it's collapsing, worse than dying. That's how I feel.

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